Even though affirmation was the root of my performance, neediness, and seeking the approval of my peers - no one had ever called me out on it. Even if I knew it somewhere deep inside me, I’d never named it before…at least not that bluntly.
I got good at being on stage. At some point I loved it. At others, I hated it. It some ways affirmation, or being the center of attention, was another drug in system. One I knew how to administer myself.